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Early Motherhood: Three Poems by Sheila Hageman

Falling Into Sky

The first time you gazed up at a tree—
September green and splotchy red
underside branches. Like thin baby
veins, blue spreading. Smoky cloud
edges appear through leaf
openings; little brown cracked
rims on green newness. Fading. Layers
of thickening, breaking open
at the top. Yellow splotchy
sun; to fall upward into open sky
with the vast blueness
awaiting. Your limp warm body; the trunk
begins behind us, ends
underground. The lawn
Great Grandpa birthed
our house from. Stones upon
his land; unearthed.

Through me

If I don’t text these words into my iPhone
How will I remember the acorns were falling hard and bouncing
Disheveled little branches scattered the driveway
Cole brushed them aside with each small first step
From the stones
Step bend sweep and sweep

Genny moans, it’ll take forever, I have to pee
She won’t go in alone, I’m scared

The single blooming rose—not on your birth day, but close
And the arranging of schedules so I could be induced
The blowing rustle of the breeze past neighbors’ trees
The flood of blood that sweeps through me today with you
Nursing on my lap

This noticing I’ve not done in so long

Round
Step Two plastic slide scuffed
red green dirt from others’ Freecycled feet

A plastic house for toddlers
with plastic beet carrot onion

Driveway separating our house from Grandma and Grandpa’s
Now in probate; a home full

Yellow garbage can still outside
Taped up blue recycling bin
Deflated pool on picnic bench

To see my crossed legs—and flip-flips
I could be my mother
Being watched by her mother

Until you squawk and remind me
I’m the mom

A red yellow blue broken basketball
Hoop

Soft pastels of leaning stacks of folding chairs
against the wall
Me climbing when I was young, or
A photo of me
plump, without
child

Sheila Hageman is a multi-tasking mother of three. She received her MFA in Creative Writing from Hunter College, CUNY. She teaches Yoga, Creative Writing, Composition and Literature. She has been published by Salon, Conversely and Moxie and blogs at www.strippermom.blogspot.com.

Read an interview with Sheila: “Yoga, Body Image, and Motherhood vs. Stripping: An Interview with Sheila Hagemen,” by Tania Pryputniewicz, March 16, 2010.

Yoga, Body Image, and Motherhood vs. Stripping: An Interview with Sheila Hagemen

Shelia Hageman

These three poems (Falling into Sky, Through Me, and Round) are fresh and light, replete with images of early motherhood and layers of family. Can you talk about writing them?

I hadn’t written any poems in years. I knew that after having my third child I was going to have even less time to write. Somewhere in my head I think I began realizing that maybe poems would be a good way to get myself writing again after not having done much writing while pregnant with my third.

I was sitting outside under a tree nursing Thomas in a wicker rocking chair when I just happened to look up and felt overwhelmed by the underside of the tree. All of a sudden I felt an urge to capture the feeling of being connected to my baby and my immediate surroundings. After having felt pretty much only stress after Thomas’s birth, this feeling of joy was something I wanted to capture.

Is Yoga part of your creative process?

I’ve just begun getting back into yoga again after stopping after my second child was born. The more I find time to connect to my body, the more I find myself connecting to my creativity. And it’s very interesting to note that since I recommitted to my yoga practice, I’ve also recommitted to my writing. They feed each other.

Can you talk to us about obtaining your MFA? Was that something you took on before, during, or after children?

I began my MFA when my daughter was one. And I’m grateful I had the opportunity to go to school while she was young. I was feeling isolated as a new mother and with no real creative outlet. Getting my MFA gave me an excuse to devote time to myself and my creativity. My mother was very ill at this same time, so I needed something that was just for me, but I did end up writing a lot about both my daughter and my mother!

How do you balance teaching, writing and motherhood?

I’m still trying to figure the whole balance thing out. I tend to take on a lot of different things at once and then just somehow get them all done. My life seems to be about finding ways to acknowledge myself as a woman and person outside of motherhood. But at the same time I’m still trying to figure out what I want my role as mother to look like, as opposed to what I feel like the world tells me I should be like as a mother.

Your blog bio (www.strippermom.blogspot.com ) reads, “A former stripper, now a mom, examines life as a woman and a mother, explores issues about body image, and reports on the latest fun of raising two small kids while waiting for number three, and oh yes–also the latest news of interest.” (Congratulations on number three…) Are you willing to share with us something about the transition between lifestyles?

Well, right there, you see I’m not keeping up with everything! I haven’t updated my bio to reflect baby number three!

The transitions I’ve experienced going from being a stripper to a mother are long-ranging, extensive, and intensive. The biggest change has really been in just how much more I respect myself as a person. I think I honor myself much better than I did as a young woman.

One of the subjects I write about most in essay form always seems to be about the different roles I’ve played in life and how I think I will always struggle with completely understanding who the “real” me is. Does that make sense?

It’s kind of like I’ve always been the same, but I’m also completely different.

Anything you’ve discovered about body image?

Body image is something I explore a lot in my writing and just for myself in general. I believe a lot of women today are confused and angered by the cultural representations of the ideal female figure. And you can’t escape the images in our society.

Coming from the position of having been one of those “images,” I feel I have a responsibility to do my best to understand my experience as a publically nude woman—why did I feel compelled to live my life in the nude for others? Why did I do things I didn’t want to? And why was there also such a conflicting drive to be seen as a sexual and desired object?

I know raising a daughter, I find I’m constantly coming up against new thoughts and tensions around body image. I imagine your former line of work, your current work with Yoga and writing make for a rich field of experience. Has motherhood changed how you view body image?

Absolutely. I am finally (I think) coming to terms with my body. Of course, just when I think I’m accepting of myself just as I am, some new negative thought pops up. I imagine having a healthy body image will be an issue I will face for my entire life in some form or another.

So far, my daughter has helped me feel better about my body in the sense that she seems to love me regardless of how my body looks. As does my wonderful husband. My family really has helped me to trust that I am valuable as a person, not just as a “woman.”

Any new writing projects you are currently working on?

Too many to list! I’m having fun right now exploring different genres. After finishing my memoir, Stripping Down, and spending more time than I like to admit trying to find a home for it—and I’m still looking—I needed to do something very different.

So, I am working on poems in a loose and unstructured way. I also am working on a writing book for moms who want to write. Not to mention my graphic memoir in progress. Oh, and then don’t forget about my children’s books I’m dabbling in!

I seem to work best when I can move between projects!

Interviews

Amoroso, Amy: Into the Center of a Maze:Amy Amoroso on giving birth, motherhood, death, medical school, and writing by Jessica Powers, December 12, 2011

Angel, Ann & Amanda: Birth Mothers, Adoption, and Art: An interview with Ann & Amanda Angel by Jessica Powers, November 29, 2010

Bastian, Rebecca Kinzie:  “Suspended in Midair: Infants, Graduate School, and Wild Swans” By Tania Pryputniewicz, August 30, 2011

Baudot, Laure: Female Competition, Motherhood, and the Art of Writing: an interview with Laure Baudot by Jessica Powers, December 31, 2010

Baxter, Candice: Breasts, Sexual Objects, Flash Fiction, and Teen Pregnancy: an interview with Candice Baxter  by Jessica Powers, November 17, 2010

Beattie, Robyn: Fertile Variations: The Pregnant Body with Photographer Robyn Beattie By Tania Pryputniewicz, July 4, 2011

Black, Timothy: An Interview with Poet Timothy Black: Male Medusas, Beautiful Lies, and Cancer Sex, By Tania Pryputniewicz, September 29, 2010

Bonczek, Michelle:  Lamplighters and Unfertilized Eggs: Questioning Fertility-Centered Female Identity, Shadow Dialogues, and Conscious Choice/Conscious Devotion with Poet Michelle Bonczek by Tania Pryputniewicz, January 3, 2011

Bonnici, Kate Bolton: An Interview with Guest Poetry Editor Kate Bolton Bonnici, By Tania Pryputniewicz, August 24, 2012

Burns, Nancy: Excerpts from Birth Mandala: The Power of Visioning for Child Birth with Nancy Burns By Tania Pryputniewicz, March 5, 2012

Cano, Esther Chavez: Because I am a Woman, By Bobby Byrd, January 4, 2010

Capria, Alana I: “Abbreviated Motherhood, Abortion as Form of Love, and Revision as Medicine with Alana I. Capria,” By Tania Pryputniewicz, September 13, 2010

Corrigan, Brittney: An Interview with Brittney Corrigan: Second Hearts, Autism, and Mother Writer Retreats By Tania Pryputniewicz August 22, 2011

Cotter, Tasha: Exploring the Fictional Worlds of Poet Tasha Cotter By Tania Pryputniewicz, February 6, 2012

Davis, Nicelle: It Takes a Village to Raise a Poem, By Tania Pryputniewicz, June 29, 2010

DeCamp, Christine: Rhythms of Women and Nature: An Interview with Artist Christine DeCamp By Tania Pryputniewicz, By Tania Pryputniewicz, May 2, 2011

Eisdorfer, Erica: An interview on breastfeeding and wet nursing with Erica Eisdorfer by Jessica Powers, August 18, 2009

Eubanks, Scott: “Adoption, Developmental Disabilities, Parenthood, and Writing: An Interview with Scott Eubanks,” by Jessica Powers, February 9, 2011

Flood, Nancy Bo: No-Name Baby: Book Review and Interview by Ann Angel, September 3, 2012.

Flowers, Christopher: “The Common Ground of Emotion under Adversity: Witness/Father/Poet Christopher Flowers on ‘Ultrasound’ and ‘Skull Tectonics’” by Tania Pryputniewicz, January 17 2011

Frank, Sandy: Writing as Prelude to Sculpture with Sandy Frank: Rebirth, Snake Woman, and the Nest by Tania Pryputniewicz, June 2010

Fraser, Katherine: “Testaments to Resiliency: Deferred Motherhood, Divorce and Peace in the Artwork of Katherine Fraser,” by Tania Pryputniewicz, February 12, 2011

Freeman, Mike: Nature Writing, Procreation and The Human Condition by Jessica Powers, October 5, 2012

Givhan, Jennifer: Interview with Poet Jennifer Givhan, by Kate Bolton Bonnici, February 4, 2013

Glen-Smith, David: Possible Futures: Poetry, Puerto Rico and Adoption with David-Glen Smith by Tania Pryputniewicz, November 28, 2011

Hageman, Sheila: “Yoga, Body Image, and Motherhood vs. Stripping: An Interview with Sheila Hagemen,” by Tania Pryputniewicz, March 16, 2010

Hirshfeld-Flores, Alissa: An Interview with Alissa Hirshfeld-Flores: Birth, Death and Hospice, by Tania Pryputniewicz, October 5, 2012

Jennings, Alice Catherine: An Interview with Poet Alice Catherine Jennings, by Kate Bolton Bonnici, June 3, 2013

Jordan, Elaine: “Elaine Jordan on Infertility, Marriage, and Becoming a Clergywoman,” by Jessica Powers, February 22, 2011

Karpinska, Janina Ava: Reflections on Writing: Life, Laundry and Loss with Poet Janina Aza Karpinska by Tania Pryputniewicz, November 8, 2010

Kercher, Timothy: “Triplets and Translation in the Republic of Georgia with Poet Timothy Kercher.” By Tania Pryputniewicz, February 16, 2011

Kiefer, Molly Sutton: Poet, Mother, Resource Maven for Mothers, Writers, and Artists By Tania Pryputniewicz, June 25, 2012

Klemme, Laurie: The Politics of Motherhood and Poets Writing Fiction By Tania Pryputniewicz, February 12, 2014

Lee, Kenna: Balancing Eco-Feminism, Motherhood, and Writerdom: An Interview with Kenna Lee, By Tania Pryputniewicz, April 30, 2012

Lemoine, Monica Murphy: Interview with Miscarriage Survivor Monica Murphy Lemoine: Author of Knocked Up, Knocked Down By Tania Pryputniewicz, May 21, 2010

Lenox, Stephanie: Limitations, Imitations, and Haiku as Form of Expansion: an Interview with Poet Stephanie Lenox By Tania Pryputniewicz, October 24, 2011

Lewars, Corbin: Corbin Lewars on rape, miscarriage, sex, marriage, divorce and writing what you really feel By Jessica Powers, February 27, 2012

McPherson, Sandra: Poetry’s Secret Rooms with Sandra McPherson: Bloodlines, Adoption, and The Spaces Between Birds By Tania Pryputniewicz, August 16, 2011

O’Brien, Andrea: The Mystery and The Mess: Motherlines and Motherless Women with Poet Andrea O’Brien By Tania Pryputniewicz, June 20 2011

Peary, Alexandria: Holographic Haiku and Genetic Futures: Poet Alexandria Peary on Fertility and Follain By Tania Pryputniewicz, February 25, 2014

Peters, Bonnie: On Healing, God, Creativity, and Parenting a Child with Disabilities: An Interview with Bonnie Peters By Jessica Powers, July 16, 2012

Powers, J.L.: HIV-AIDS in Africa, rape and sexual violence in South Africa and Becoming a Mother Writer: an Interview with J.L. Powers By Tania Pryputniewicz, March 21, 2011

Ptacin, Mira. Fear, Love, Pregnancy, Loss, and Memoir: Mira Ptacin on writing “A Kind of Love” by Jessica Powers, May 9, 2011

Richards, Jim: Father Witness, Birth vs. God: An Interview with poet Jim Richards By Tania Pryputniewicz, May 30, 2011

Rizzo, Lisa: Celebrating the Foregoing of Motherhood: Poetry in the Service of Spiritual Quandary, Lineage, and Teaching Adolescents with Poet Lisa Rizzo by Tania Pryputniewicz, November 14, 2011

Robins, Tonja: Miscarriage and The Beauty of the Ordinary, by Tania Pryputniewicz, July 12, 2010

Rohan, Ethel: The Power of Domestic Realism, Male Protaginists and The Dual Degree: Mills and Motherhood with Writer Ethel Rohan  By Tania Pryputniewicz, July 18, 2011

Schmidt, Lauren: Puberty’s Monologue, Fearless Language, and Writing Despite Opposition by Tania Pryputniewicz, August 2, 2010

Sobkiw, Elizabeth: Pregnant in a Barren Landscape: Art, Control, and Premature Ovarian Failure with Artist Elizabeth Sobkiw by Tania Pryputniewicz, September 19, 2011

Stewart, Lydia: Lydia Stewart on Child Abuse, Parenting, and Children’s Rights by Tania Pryputniewicz, March 29, 2010

Swift, Joan: The Poetry of Joan Swift: Snow on a Crocus, Formalities of a Neonaticide By Tania Pryputniewicz, October 12, 2010

Thompson, Laura: Male Miscarriage, Reptilian vs. Human Mating Rituals, and Inappropriate Lactation: An Interview with Poet Laura Thompson by Tania Pryputniewicz, January 9, 2012

Voute Roeder, Antoinette: An Interview with Antoinette Voûte Roeder: The Poetry of Reunion, Poetry as Communion by Tania Pryputniewicz, November 22, 2010

Worthington, Leslie: Bastard Babies are born with broken hearts: an interview with Leslie Worthington By Jessica Powers, January 23, 2012




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